This has been a really hard day to find three good things about. I really don't know why I also let myself get wrapped up in stuff like this but for some reason, as soon as I start feeling like I understand a guy, I end up realizing that I either don't understand him or don't understand men in general at all. Maybe I read too much into things...no, wait, I DEFINITELY read too much into things. (I really need to work on that too.) I don't know how NOT to. I know all guys say that they really don't think about things that deeply but I'm sure some guys do, right? Surely there has to be a few exceptions like there are with girls, and then if there are, what if this guy is one of those exceptions and he reads too much into what I send? I really just sent it as a friendly message and then began freaking out when he hadn't responded (in only a few hours, not too long) and then a friend of mine mentioned that maybe it was because it sounded slightly like I wanted a relationship with him (which I do, but it just cannot happen now and I know this, so I'm not trying to). Oh god, here I go again, sounding like I'm overanalyzing everything. Bottom line, I know that fate has a way of working out and I know all of the cliches like "If it's meant to be, it'll work out" etc, but I hate them and I really hate waiting on responses when I put my heart out on my sleeve and live to the fullest. Why can't we all just be honest with what we want? Why is that so difficult? I feel like I might be able to cope better with things if everyone was honest and upfront from the start, rather than diddling around topics or feelings just to make things worse in the long run. Ok, this is sounding like I'm really pessimistic about this guy now. I'm not. I just know that a really long-distance relationship is not something that either of us really have time (or money) for at the moment. Maybe if I end up moving where he is (a pre-planned potential move, has nothing to do with meeting him, just a potential added bonus now). We shall see. Again, time will tell. If it's meant to be...
Day 3:
1. I got a chair massage for free at work today as part of a community bonding thing. It was a fantastic break in the day! Yay for personal counseling department!
2. I received word that I have made it to a telephone interview on Friday for something I really, really want, so fingers crossed that it goes well!
3. Eatzi's salads might just be the best salads in the world and I got one for lunch today. (Told you I was pushing it on good things today.)
That is all.
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